1/1/11: Make a Wish

I have a really dirty secret, and in the spirit of self improvement, I'm going to share it with you.

I'm painfully self-conscious.

I cannot stand to look at pictures of myself. Especially of my face. I cringe when I see it, and think to myself that I have the fattest face in the entire universe.

And then I go to Wal-Mart and observe that this is categorically untrue.

But I continue to believe it anyway. Because I am painfully self-conscious.

So, I would never ever dream of taking lots and lots of pictures of myself and posting them on the internet for everyone to see. Unless...

Unless I decided that it was completely ridiculous for a 28 year old woman to think she is ugly. Especially given the frequency with which she finds herself perusing People of Wal-Mart.

And I happen to believe just that. And I have a mustard seed-sized kernel of faith that aversion therapy just might work.

So, every day for a year, I am going to take a picture of my own face and post it on the internet for all the world to see. I'm curious to see if any of the internal changes I'm working on so feverishly will be reflected on the outside as well.

If nothing else, perhaps I will not be so quick to shy away from the camera when one gets pointed in my face.

Every one of us desires and deserves to be comfortable in his own skin. My wish is that this is the year it happens.

Here goes nothing!

Oh noes!